I I just don’t know, there I’m feeling some you know, i can’t discribe how i’m feeling there, maybe I have some friends with who I can laugh there or do some funny things, but all ambience is so dumb and empty fuck that in the mornings I’m like going to hell. and I really don’t want to repeat it every day I wanna see new thing every day make new things be defferant places have fun, be happy, to get off from that same motion of all the world…I want to be free to be other I don’t want to follow all the life rules and be like every boring body…. I want real inspiration..I want new country every day.. That’s fantasy Imagine I’m not here, I’m really so, so far..I’m living without rules I’m enjoying life and STOP!! Get up babe it was only dream, but I need make it real..
Really time is waisting so so fast, and I want super speed, I don’t want to stop..sometimes i’m imagining if that 2 or 3 years will pass and I will visit in all my dream countries am I really gonna be happy..I mean happy at all. but if really I don’t want to be happy at all. i want feel hurt I want spend my time thinking what i did I don’t want that perfect I want live just differant……..I want other world and no rules..
I don’t know..I’m other person. my minds where they are. i don’t care in future..my fucking future I can get it but I can’t at the same time…I’m inspired I’m living i’m not realist anymore I’m not afraid to make mistakes or lose my friends or they’re just acting that they are friends…If really i don’t care i will have friends or not and I’m even don’t care that they have more cool things..maybe I’m getting angry maybe I don’t have anything to say, I want that freedom and I’ve got it i’m not afraid to tell them that I can live better without them
I want that empty and mysterious way..Maybe i grewn up faster and I understand that life isn’t briliant and nobody cares cuz it would be shit big shit if life will get perfect that perfect is “perfect” not real not good as people..
who needs that “perfect”..I’m smiling I don’t know why..I’m a freak. i just want be Free freak..i have to be..I’m searching that clean, empty and at the same time a full way..
I wanna be strong. to wait..freedom and love that’s all need us…Forever, forever forevea………………and yeah i’m in love this fucking cool lifeeeeeee forever forever forever…..
I really feel, anythings I can’t understand what the fuck with me I even can’t understand is it good or not… I don’t know..I started don’t think a lot how I did in before..I’m like other person, yes I’m continuing dream about what I dreamt in before, but something other I want it so so freaking much right now to, but I’m not what I was….Even music, my music have changed and what the fuck..
I’m like I don’t know, I’m not afraid of anything, i’m not afraid to say that I like my fat body or that I loveeeeeeeeeeee thisssss freaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkiiiinnnnnnnnggggggggggggg beeeeeeaaaaaaaauttttiiiiiiiiffuuuuuuuuuullllllllll lifeeeeeeee ♥♥♥♥♥
I HAVE NO RULES I CAN MAKE MISTAKES I WANT TO MAKE MISTAKES I’M A FREE FREAK…..
I WANT TO HOLD ON ALL MY DREAMS AND TAKE CARE OF THEM ALL, CUZ I WANT THAT..
I DON’T KNOW MYSELF BUT I LOVE IT………
STAY WITH ME GOD MY♥
And hey from any long time…I’ve just got internet and maybe already passed a month something changed and I’m so glad that I could change any little things..
So let’s tell u what happened during a month..I’ve got healthy and I’m feeling better..Me and my frend we are going some pretty cool place which I found and I’m so so glad that I found in my country American library, that’s like place what about I always dreamt…We are watching there English movies we’re doing debate and reading classes that’s really so fun..And I even took some American book, that’s always were me little dream have real English book..Guys maybe I’m sound dumb and that is weird for you that I’m getting happy for just one stupid book, but really appreciate what you have cuz very many persons dreaming about what you have and about your life type..I’m appreciateing my life to, coz I know any kids dreaming about normal life and maybe my life not what I really want, whatever I’m so thankful to God for everything and I think that’s most importanat thing in life that’s have a Faith coz if you have a Faith you gorra make your all importanat dreams..Dream, Fight and Belive in yourself..
Will be alright, I believe..♥