I lost

This day began and what? We are living in a dream. But I woke up today. This is actually stupid but I woke up from this dream and saw that something, someone got less from my dream. My grandfather passed away..

He’s in heaven right now?!

Where are you my old man? Why you make me crying without reason, cause we could stay together. Who’s going to call me in a word which only you know what’s. The word I have no idea what means but  I’m sure its something puppy.

We wasn’t the best grandfather and granddaughter we just loved each other in the love every single relative does. But when you got sick and when you annoyed everyone with your funny old man things. I was laughing how cute and funny my grandpa is. I know everybody who has ever told you suck words thinking “if we could turn back the time”.

I said a lot of time that I don’t have roots and I’m  daughter of the universe but one thing I understand today, You’re my root and I’m kind of thankful to you that I’m sitting here, writing about you, thinking about us and  time by time cleaning my tears.

I’m realistic even I’m sure my life is a dream and I will wake up some day. I understand everyone’s one day dying, that’s natural but heart’s natural too. I said myself a lot of time “this isn’t horrible, this is okay, this is natural, but demon it hurts”

I know it will pass, I’ll  grown up, I wont remember but sucks even if we’ll forget I miss  that old man.

 

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We have to know what we live for

I just can’t understand the people. They are thinking about rules, principles, like what if, and a lot dumb ideas in the head of humans.

Today in facebook  I saw the post where one mother who’s not worked enough money to make her son’s wishes true, was so broke and after it she played in porn film as an actress she has got money and bought bicycle for her only son, after that it was written “they are so happy now, she made her son happy”. The cries coming quickly after this all, I felt we didn’t lose our hope to be human and take care for each other. But then I read whole comments in that post. Every single body, everybody judged her, even someone wrote “couldn’t you just hit your son to be angry to him and say that he’s too little to wish anything”. I just can’t guess  did that commenter meant that the kids are nobodies and we gonna don’t care  about whole our children’s wishes?? I really have no idea  what is she meant. Okay if we  have problems  do we gonna make our favorite people sad, hit them, judge them?? Really? I’m really freaking don’t understand..

I’m just 16  everyday sitting in internet reading any posts, comments, quotes everyday I’m learning something new, some opinions, minds are making my young opinion about world its all making me grown. And what do you mean saying “hit your baby and scream at him”. Do you wanna make me angry in future? If during the time I’ve didn’t got my opinion maybe I could be agree with you. What do you think, in the future will we get the love and peace?

We can beat each other how much we like but do we think about future, do we think about after us. I really can’t understand the people, who’s making any “special”  “cool” “severe” minds and telling everyone about their “strong opinion” which is so useless and stupid for everyone..

Every mistake is not mistake if we are doing it for getting love, peace and hope..And how I understand for that killing is most  inexcusable thing because it isn’t have any of this 3 things..

P.S I’m so grateful, yesterday I’ve got most kind of likes for my photoghrapy post, its really makes me stronger for my future dreams.